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Farewells

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4th week of January, 2016.

13.35, the sun was burning hot.

This is it, I thought. It’s already the time.

It’s officially, basically, the last time I see him.

Maybe I was overreacting, saying such things like ‘the last’; because who is actually sure about it?

No one, right?

But then, I recalled everything too well.

Farewells… Encounters… Beginnings… Ends…

Will come that point of time when something will over. That’s just how life is. What we called Nature’s Laws’. It’s naturalSunatullah.

You can’t prevent them from happening. Don’t you realize all the ‘see you’s and ‘until next time’s hardly happen? Once they finish their ‘journey’ on something, they would probably go to another ‘fates’ that await them.

And yes, the old past will hardly cross their mind, because it’s already ‘over’. They have a brand new life; a journey to pass. They have to get on with their new life.

An the past will surely be buried deep down their mind.

It might sound really sad.

Things like separations, departures, losses, farewells, goodbyes, even deaths…

Everything won’t be the same forever. It’ll end. It’ll be over. It’ll be taken away from us; whether we like it or not. Whether we want it or not.

But like I’ve said… It’s natural. You won’t be able to change it. Never have, never be, and never will.

And someone once told me that if you can’t change something, you have to make yourself fit in that situation. Adjusting. Adapting. Because at times, not everything has to meet our liking.

Yes, of course I can’t change what God has written from million years ago. I just have to make myself believe that whatever plans he has on me, it’s probably for the best.

And when it comes to farewells; I just have to believe that I was so lucky having those people in my life –though we’ll be separated. But the memories I got were so precious they couldn’t be bought and surely can’t be replaced. And I’m really grateful and thankful for it. I really am.

So, instead of mopping on farewells, you gotta realize of how lucky you are to feel those feelings, memories of being with them –your precious loved ones.

That’s why, I’ve finally learned to say,

Whatever will be, will be. Que sera, sera.

Learn to take everything that’s happened to me open-heartedly, and simply breathe.

Accepting everything. Learn to let go.

I waved to him slowly, letting him go with a slight sincere smile; because I think the worst farewells are the ones with tears with them –so I should make myself looks strong before he goes.

He waved back; and I swear I could see his eyes were watery –but he tried his best to hold it. It killed me. I’d be lying if I said ‘I don’t want to break down into tears right now’ or a simple ‘I’m not sad’. Because I did want to cry, I was just so sad.

But seeing him holding back, he probably didn’t want to make us sad.

I smiled wider instead.

Silently thanking him, apologizing, and making a simple prayer that won’t be known by him, in my heart:

“Please, do not forget each other. Please, do not stop wishing each other all the goods. I hope every one of us could see each other again, crossing each other in another point of life sometime, somewhere. And even if we won’t…

Let’s pray that we will be united in the Jannah‘s eternity. Aamiin.”

And the car he was in slowly disappearing from my sight.

Until next time…

Our longing will always be with you.

This writing is dedicated to one of my high school teachers who had to move out before we graduated.

Arhamuka fillah.

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